I have all these symptoms except 3 of them.

Why can't I get tested?

No income... (wait for it) because I have all these symptoms!


http://tinyurl.com/m4lelfl 

MS: Multiple sclerosis is an unpredictable,often disabling disease of the central nervous system that disrupts the flow of information within the brain, and between the brain and the body.

I have:

• Fatigue
• Walking (Gait) Difficulties
• Numbness or Tingling
• Spasticity
• Weakness
• Vision Problems
• Dizziness and Vertigo
• Bladder Problems
• Bowel Problems
• Pain
• Cognitive Changes
• Emotional Changes
• Depression
• Speech Problems
• Swallowing Problems
• Breathing Problems
• Headache
• Hearing Loss

Tired. Tired. Tired. 
I'm so tired of being tired. 
I wake up tired. 
I go through my day tired. 
I sleep tired, eat tired, breath tired. 
Tired. 
Tired. 
Tired.

Good news. 

The tests I had done about 2 months ago came back negative for cancer, so that's a load off my subconscious. 

I really wasn't as worried about cancer as I was being a diabetic. I can't loose my sugar. 

But that was negative too, so yea!!! whoohoo!!!!! 

So the problems I was having id due to "hormone imbalance" which could be caused by stress, cause yeah, adding cancer worries to my life was the smart thing for my body to do when I need less stress. =P 

Anyway, it could be chemical or residual health issues. 

Either way, its easier than having cancer. 

Or diabetes. 

Gah! Gah! and GAH!

For the second time in about a week my desk has been invaded by tiny little ants! 

It's not bad enough that I have hypersensitivity and feel the tiniest breeze across my skin making me feel like bugs are crawling on me, noooooo! I have to actually have tiny bugs crawling on me too! 

GAH!!!

Woke up and the first word I thought was THROBBING! My entire body (at least the upper half) was throbbing! Then of course my desk is covered in ants! I had to deal with all them before I could sit down and start taking my meds. The Boo got sick and I had to sit on the floor with him and then clean that up. Then I was able to sit back down and take my meds. I think I'm heading to the recliner to rest and it's not even 9am!

Another day with nothing to do. Nothing I can do. It's torment. I need goals, I need action /adventure! I miss being a fire fighter. I hate that I couldn't do what I wanted to do growing up. I hate that I still can't do.

This month has been the worst for doctor appointments!

Eye Doc
Last week I traveled an hour away to be told I don't have an appointment that day and then an hour home.... and I go to this doctor next week!

Plus I went there last month expecting to see the Emory doctor, but he wasn't there at all that day I was scheduled to see a regular doctor (never mind that I have a regular eye doc near by) and charged  over $150 for that visit which resulted in a lot of nothing, really. 

Then I get  a letter saying I missed a visit, but I didn't it was rescheduled and their computers were down so they didn't put it in later? I guess.

Then I'm told rudely on 2 over the phone and then later in person that *I* was the one who changed the date. If I had changed the day wouldn't I have known about it?! 

They had told me when I was there for the last visit, (with the OTHER doctor not the Emory doctor I wanted to see) if I had proof I was covered by ARMC they would do something about my bill. At the time I was waiting on paperwork from the government to turn in to get on the indigent program. She said that was fine, just bring it in next time. 

But she didn't want to take my ARMC papers because their bill (for the doctor I didn't want to see) started before the date on my ARMC papers!!  GRRR

Finally she took the ARMC papers (made a copy) and gave me my next date for sure. I asked because I had 2 different dates again in my stuff. 



Then

Specialist
We traveled over an hour and a half the next day through bad storms toward Atlanta to be told I didn't have to come in to see that doctor, but that I could get my results from my local doctor.

So we canceled and went home and called the local doctor who says No, he wont see me, I need to see the specialist. That's why I was sent to a specialist. Grrr

So now we have to make ANOTHER appointment to see the specialist and go back over an hour (about and hour and a half each way) and pay to see a specialist on top of the "every 3 months" appoints I have to pay for at the regular doctor to qualify for medicinal programs.

Anyway.

I am waiting to hear about when I can go back an hour and a half there to see the specialist to see if I have cancer or diabetes or what because my local doctor refuses to tell me. 

And I'm waiting on local doctor office to make appointment for me to see someone at ARMC (if possible) to see if I have MS. 

I am gradually having more and more trouble seeing.

IDK if its Conversion again because I want to see my children and can't or it's a side effect of MS.

This is a Christian Kane type morning.

I hope I am pulling out of the flares I have been in for weeks.

My loose hair touching my skin was torture. Static Mechanical Allodynia

I was so tired my eye lashes hurt! Fibromyalgia

My hand felt like over stuffed sausages. also Fibromyalgia

The antibiotics made me tired and my mouth tasted like old nasty coffee (I hate coffee anyway).

The last joints of my middle fingers still hurt like they are out of place or something. And they are drawing up. This has been going on for weeks. I hope my general doctor gets me an appointment with a neurologist soon to get tested for MS.

I am still waiting on word from the biopsy done a few weeks back. It could be cancer or diabetes causing my symptoms. It's just more waiting. I guess slow news is good news? lol

Contrary to what the nurse said, the Doctor told me there was no medicine to help with nightmares. He did give me something to help me sleep, but I had problems. 

1) it didn't get me to sleep
2) it kept me in the nightmare which was a nightmare!
3) it kept me asleep in the mornings (hard to wake up) Mom said I was like an ole cat with her tail stuck in the door. Yeah, I didn't want to wake up at all. 

I am taking extra probiotics so the bad old coffee taste in my mouth is less, and more magnesium to help with IBS but  yea for antibiotics. =P

I found an article that I want everyone to read. Please. 

This is my second husband.

It is as if someone were videotaping our lives

and quoting him as an example

at every point!

I hate that I gave him the power to destroy me, my children, my extended family, my life and my reputation. 

Quite frankly I almost physically died because of his destructive ways.

I only wish I had seen it sooner!

I still pray people will see the truth. (But I'm not holding my breath.)



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